Haiqel Bin Hamdan

went to city hall yesterday to watch some carnival organised from some spanish company. it was kinda cool at first, but became bored along the way. finally decided to proceed to shop to buy a pack of cigarettes then watched some band performances by the waterfront. the singer was mathilda from the previous season of singapore idol. she had a good voice actually. the other guy sucked coz she didn`t sing that well.

i have to admit that i was really pissed with mursh yesterday. i messaged her early in the morning, but she didn`t reply. that`s ok for me. but till 9.30pm i haven`t heard anything from her. well i thought she was work`g till one time i gave her a call. she picked up. and she was around city hall too. wanted to meet her, but it was kinda late already coz she and her friends had to go home. i mean, if she were to call me or message me telling me whats her plan for the night earlier i would have probably met her right? but she just kept quite as if i don`t even exist in her life. i wasn`t angry. i was SAD. that`s a huge different people. coz she just kept quiet as in she didn`t bother to reply my message or even give me a "less-than-one-minute" call. ATLEAST ask`g me where i am or what am i doing. i really don`t expect a 1 hour talk. i`m just gonna face it than she doesn`t even care. well, what to do? i really don`t like to shout at people or fight lah. not my style. seriously. but some people. they either don`t see it or they just take advantage of it. so i just POLITELY asked her to go home first. then me, fiq & yat bought some food and chilled for a while. then went home at around. 11.20pm. reached home at 12am. and then what? i waited for mursh to call till 12 plus. no hope. so i decided to call her myself instead. she picked up again. i asked her what she was doing and she said she was listening to music. wanna know what was in my mind? "senyap je?!?! asal tak call?!?!?! dari siang orang tunggu dia call!! uuurrggghh!!" see? she doesn`t even care lah so i`m just gonna face it. dah lah, if i were to tell her all these things. its of no use, coz she will get mad, irritated, pissed off etc. yelah, wanna care about my feel`gs for for what? aku ni kan tkde perasaan. then after that she will say that i don`t understand her lah. "want-to-call-you-for-what?" lah. i`m control`g her lah. ni lah tu lah. haiz, i`m just really sad, not angry and dunno what to do lah.

she`s going off to melacca in the morning later. so i asked her to go and rest. she said "ok" and told me that she will message me once she`s going off. which she did. couldn`t reply her coz i was sleep`g. hope she has fun lah, i`m not expecting her to miss me. coz i know she won`t.

dah lah bye lah!!!!